Thats the first sabji I ever made.... yummy methi... all by myself!!!

Rehab- By Rihanna and JT...

When we first met, I never felt something so strong
You were like my brother and my best friend
All wrapped into one with a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to ya (to ya)
Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do ya (do ya)?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you are the one to blame
And now I feel like - ooh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what i get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
You should just go on and do it
'Cause its amusin' like I believe

It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I've gotta check in to rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I've gotta check in to rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept
You'd do anything for the one you love
Cause anytime that you needed me, I'd be there
Its like you were my favorite drug
The only problem was that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know that it's not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to ya (to ya)
Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do ya?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you are the one to blame
Cause now I feel like - ooh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what i get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause its not amusin' like I believe

It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I've gotta check in to rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I've gotta check in to rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

PS: Rihanna n JT wrote this song on my request! I am not kiddin'... I was too tired to write one myself and i HAD to so...

And thats what you mean to me...

You’re the question for all my answers
The reason I have them all...
For you I am who am I?
My mystery only you can solve
So lend me some of your love
For its you who makes me real
And that’s what you mean to me!


I know I have not been at best
And I know how you feel
But I promise it’s no disinterest
It’s my fate I can’t reveal
So I’m writing you this song
Saying you’re my destiny
And that’s what you mean to me!


For now I am asking for yours
It’s my heal, and not retreat
And that’s what you mean to me!

I am letting this song tell you!!
The answer I know you need
That you mean so much... to me


(I may not have the proofs as of now
I may not say it loud
But I know I have it in
Give it some time to sort out
I promise it will be worth it
Your wait and mine!
I promise it’s perfect
To last for all our lives...
All I need is your love
To nurture mine
To support me in my many battles
I have to fight.
For they are all for you
All ...that is mine
Like I said you are the reason
For me and my device
For us and our premise
All the magic that’s alive
For the love on which I thrive
For my promise
For my strive...
I dedicate to you this rhyme
Hoping this makes you realize
That you will mean the world to me
When the time is right!!!)

I promise I will tell you
Just how you want to hear!
What you mean to me...

Locked in Locks...

My first movie ever...
Yepeee....
Guys please let me know how you'll like it!
Shot on 3rd and 4th of January 2009.

My Love! (And whatever you may say... I look way prettier!!!

And thats how i want it!!!

Sahil: Wassup
Shivam: My baby!
Sahil: bol
Shivam: My jaanam. I missed you sooh much!
Sahil: it hurts?
Shivam: LOLZ... So wat r u upto?
Sahil: nothing..tp... online... got up at 2 30..so online n paper n tv. Feel so useless. I wana c yuvvraaj n sory bhai. But i feel guilty to go watch a muvi at this stage
Shivam: I know. m just writin an article bt it... how people wont watch a muvi out of guilt... and the loss its causing to the industry
Sahil: oh..hmm..dude... now no new yr celebrations too... It l be too inhuman of us if we celebrate...
Shivam: Really... who told you that? I am going to celebrate new years... Even if I do that attending a prayer for the deceased... but I will!... and about you movie...I think you can watch a muvi...
Sahil: I will feel really bad yaar
Shivam: You don’t have to
Sahil: oh..hmm... y nt?
Shivam: because it doesn’t matter... doesnt make u a bad guy
Sahil: wen my city has suffered so much..n ppll hav died? Doesnt it? Maybe... but doesn’t feel right...ne kind of njoyment
Shivam: But you not enjoying wont benefit ne1... besides u r neways nt doin sumthin abt it...so u might as well help people recover loses
Sahil: I am waiting..fr things to settle down atleast 5 %
Shivam: now thats hypocrisy
Sahil: lol
Shivam: doesn’t benefit anyone... certainly not the people who have lost directly... its for the best the city helps them get on with their lives... not remind them of their tragedy with empty streets and no life and celebrations... of course the respects have to and will be offered but then don’t disguise them in sadness either... it is a display of hope... Isn’t it?
Sahil: wad you are saying makes sense. But still it doesnt feel right ya... i dunt kno..just
Shivam: i can understand... every1s feelin like that... but why not follow things that make sense yaar... all this loss... what is it but a result of non-sense
Sahil: but i feel stupid all the more..cuz after a few days,..i will start njoying neway... dunt kno how to run away from that... at least... i wont celebrate new yrs this yr
Shivam: Your least doesn’t benefit anyone even at the least man... not one bit. And as for you enjoyment after some days...you dont have tio run away from it... for thats how life is... it moves on!! Over everything...even the biggest losses...and thank life for that!... for the world wud b a sad place otherwise... always mourning
Sahil: i kno man... but shudnt start njoying already...like wen ppl r stil suffering
Shivam: mm ... all i m sayin is those who have been struck directly, their sufferin isnt endin too soon
Sahil: hmm?obviously
Shivam: and you aint gonna wait for that either... so where is the sense?
Sahil: i kno.
Shivam: like i said its just hypocrisy
Sahil: i told u it doesnt make sense...but it just feels better... this hypocrisy
Shivam: which by the way is totally justified at this point of time
Sahil: heart is senseless... especially during such times
Shivam: of course... and thank heart for that... for otherwise there wud be too much sense in the world... and too much sense is non sense again... much hazardous then when there is a lack of it
!!!
Sahil: LOL
Shivam: And i think this chat made a lot of sense...i l put it on my blog
Sahil: lol... thnx thnx
Shivam: LOLZ...i m not sayin u did.... m sayin I did in this chat!!!
Sahil: fu u then
fuk *
Shivam: i got that... without the foot note as well.tc man!!

As for you guys... Be THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE... DON’T BE SAD ABOUT THINGS THAT HAVEN’T... The past few days have been stressful and distressful... But it’s over now... and you have to let go of it... of the remorse I am saying...
Go home... hug your loved ones... get together and wish and thank that this was not worse... for it clearly could have been...
Have some coffee... watch a movie... or your favourite soap... have a good night sleep... fearless and free...
And get back... GET BACK to life... with more enthusiasm and ambition and will (For some... Justifiable vengeance)... for you know there is a much work pending on this planet... take the responsibility... for the today that will come tomorrow!
And that my friend will make us a worthy human being!!!

Another way... MAY GOD BLESS US ALL!

Another strike another blow
Just another freak show...
I am laughing at you
And you thought you will make me cry
Just few more droplets
And you will dry...
You have lost your charm
And you know it well
You swell in anger
Avenging death knell.
It rings upon you
And you can hear it too
So you deafen your ears
In your aimless shoots!
You barge... you bark
You stay in the dark
You look for a saviour
In our fearful remarks!
Your kill
Brings still, you thrive on this pain
Let me tell you this my brother
Your kill is now in vain
For you kill will be yours only
And never mine
I will not weep for the soul
You turn divine.
Let’s see then how far do you go
Let’s see how you take hunger for sorrow
Let’s see how then, some sense you make?
Let’s see how then, what path you take?
I will follow you
Wherever you go
I will follow you with a gun and a bow!
And then I will swallow you
For you will spare my life
Which you will my boy!
Once you realize what is like...
LIVING TO LIVE... and not living to die!

Dasvidanya: **1/2 ... Watch only if you absolutely have to!

Cast: Vinay Pathak, Rajat Kapoor, Sarita Joshi, Neha Dhupia, Gaurav Gera, Saurabh Shukla

Duration: 100 minutes.

Production: One more thought, Lemontea productions.

Film: Dasvidanya-The Best Goodbye Ever.

It’s like watching 10 different short films woven around one character and his story. And that too, a story you have heard a million times? I was genuinely expecting better from Vinay and his team.

Yes- Like we guessed, Dasvidanya is 10 things to do before dying!

Bur why only the most obvious of thing? Let me just remind the makers that- Simplicity is one thing and monotony another.

Amar kaul (Vinay Pathak) is the ‘King of the sad’. A 36 year old accounts manager who lives with his part deaf eccentric mother; loveless and over worked, ‘looser’, his only status and boredom, his fodder.

One fine regular day, he is told that he has stomach cancer and has just 3 months left to him, (And this happens so early in the movie that you can’t even relate to his misery, simply because you don’t even know Amar. In fact, you just ponder what more can there be to the story that will hold you for another 90 minutes... Dasvidanya to all such hopes!) He wonders around the city mourning and complaining, and ends up at a bar. Here he meets Pratap(Ranbir Shorey) who tells him that the only way to battle death is to live life. Amar interprets the advice like he interprets other things and decides to move on with his life, which revolves around his daily chores to do list and office weight that his boss Dasgupta (A disgusting over eater Saurabh Shukla) thrusts upon him. But soon, his inner him (A Sanjubaba gone despo-like Amar) tells him how ridiculous he is to continue with his rusted cycle, when he should be spending his last days fulfilling his most cherished dreams.

That’s when Amar makes his bucket list.

Beginning from an everyman’s dream- He buys himself a car, Bosses over his ever-dominating boss, thus, quitting his job. Gets back to guitar lessons and finds his childhood heartthrob Neha (Dhupia-Her liveliness on screen well appreciated), only to tell her how he feels about her (Some good moments here because Neha is now married, yet he has to tell her that he loves her. It;s his last wish!) He then goes to Russia to meet his best friend Rajiv Julka (Rajat Kapoor). But Rajiv’s wife (Suchitra Pillai) assumes he is there to receive free treatment since both, she and Rajiv are famous doctors. Amar overhears their conversation. Hurt, he leaves the house in shame and once again wanders around the city. He is broken and disturbed, and attempts to jump off a bridge in despair. But, his luck! He is rescued... or rather forced and beaten to back off by a Russian prostitute, who takes him to her house. By the time the two fall in love, it’s time for Amar to go back. But this time, he doesn’t come back empty handed, for he has accomplished three of his dreams on the trip, his overseas fantasy, his friend, and... Love!

Comes back home, to make things right with his brother(Gaurav Gera), and also puts up with his mother’s tantric madness (Lame but funny!). But he has one more dream left- that is to have a picture of him on the front page of a newspaper! What happens to that dream... after he dies? Watch the movie.

For it bids a sweet goodbye, leaves you with a smile... and almost makes you forget how miserable the first half was.

But, what I really miss in the movie is the discovery aspect of a journey. Amar accomplishes his old dreams... but then stops dreaming. What about new wishes, the new learning’s, a bucket list never ends, does it?

Besides Shashant Shah’s direction just enhances the tedium and blandness of the script. He experiments in the beginning with some borrowed styles but doesn’t go on... which just maybe for good though, but shows that he is under confident.

Vinay Pathak hardly invents and passes of each scene in unexplained hesitance. There is nothing new, in his portrayal of emotions but he plays off fair, none the less. Sarita Joshi (Mumma) however amuses you throughout with her clumsy yet delightfully hyper act. Others, including Neha Dhupia, Surabh Shukla , Gaurav Gera, Rajat Kapoor also do their thing.

The background score is a charmer and so are all the songs. And there is a good blend of locations and colours on screen too!

But even then, Dasvidanya remains just another addition to our library, highly ignorable and not worth the big bucks in multiplexes. A DVD watch won’t do any harm though, but wait for the genuine ones to come out...